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The other day I said to my husband…

“Do you ever catch your reflection in a store window or car mirror and think… Whoa – Is that what I really look like? Because I feel like I’m 27 and when I look at myself I’m seeming more Lily Bass than Serena van der Woodsen. You know? I feel so young. But then I catch a glimpse of a wrinkle and almost can’t believe it. You know what I mean? Does that happen to you?”

“No,” he responds.

“No to which part? Because it’s not like you would think you look like Lily Bass. You would be more Rufus Humphrey and less Dan Humphrey in this scenario. Ok, we’re getting way off track with “Gossip Girl” analogies and it’s pointless because you still refuse to open yourself up to the brilliance of that show by sitting down to watch an episode. So what I’m trying to say isΒ  – do you ever catch your reflection and are suddenly shocked by the aging process?”


At that point, I decided to not share that sometimes I stare at myself at the mirror and pull back the sides of my face to see what I would look like if I went all Joan Rivers at the age of 39.

I wish I could be more like my husband. I wish the aging process didn’t bug me.

But if sort of does. And by “sort of” I mean, “totally.”

I think I once read on Kristen’s blog that in 10 years we’ll look back on photos of ourselves at our present age and think we look so young and fabulous. So we should just appreciate how we look today. I try to remember that because it’s kick ass advice. And if that tidbit didn’t come from Kristen, well, she’s a fantastic photographer so you should still check out her blog.

And I just FEEL so young. Except for the other night when I was driving on the Merritt Parkway.Β  And I was going like 40 mph which is so slow I think it might be illegal on a highway.

But in my defense, the Merritt is really dark and curvy. And my ancient jeep doesn’t really have “headlights” but more like dim bulbs that I believe have the same wattage as two flashlights. And highways should have streetlights. And plus, I think everyone driving in the opposite direction had their brights on. And who are all these daredevils flying past me anyway?

So when I’m not going 40 mph on major highways, I feel totally young.

P.S. Project Runway is BACK. And it’s exactly how you remember. Except in LA. And on Lifetime. And it’s hosted by Kathy Ireland.

Ok, it’s still Heidi.

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44 Responses to i swear i was 27 like 5 minutes ago

  • Sometimes I look at myself and think, wow, looking good for 40. Other times it’s more, holy hell I look like my mom. Wohoo for project runway, if my darn husband would just go to bed so I can turn off the soccer game.

  • hokgardner says:

    I still feel like a dumb 18 year old, but then I look in the mirror and am astonished to see a 39-year-old mother of four looking back.

    And I can’t wait to see the new Project Runway. I’ve recorded it for when I get a break from the kids.

  • Dixie Chick says:

    Yes, in my mind, I still so feel 25ish, but my body is saying other things, with a 6 and 3 year old, they make me feel both young at heart but old physically. But for me at 41, it is ALL about attitude. I just have to remind myself of that sometimes. And I’m loving at this age, learning for real, not to worry about what other people think – that is so liberating!

  • each year as I get older I am reminded about a painting by Goya. It’s called Que Tal? And we see this decrepit (that spelling is so wrong!) old woman staring into her hand-held mirror and staring back at her is the reflection of this young beauty. Clearly she still saw herself in that manner. I always thought that painting was a bit creepy… and now as I age and walk around feeling as though I am 20 years old (except for first thing in the morning!) I wonder if I am as disillusioned as that lady in the painting… Will I feel a sprite 60 when I am 80, I wonder?

  • christy says:

    I taped Project Runway last night and can’t wait to watch it tonight!

    I TOTALLY get it too – I feel like I’m in my early twenties even though I’m 35 and am beginning, okay, HAVE, crows feet. Sigh.

  • Mwa says:

    Oh, yeah, I get that. Especially in the mornings. It seems these days my face has to “settle” and I only start looking like me about fifteen minutes after I get out of bed.

  • Bitsy says:

    Oh, I totally relate and my husband does, too. Just last night he was worrying about some thinning hair. Poor guy. I have no idea how we got from 27 to 41, but, dang, it sure happened fast. And now we have teenagers to look at us with disdain and make us feel even worse.

  • Rachel says:

    I feel the aging process when I approach groups of cool young twenty somethings thinking I will totally fit in. Only to find them glaring at me like I have spit up on my face, oh I probably do.

  • Lanie says:

    I am with you on the aging process. It just does not seem possible that we are not still in our 20’s.

    Have you watched Project Runway, yet? It is waiting for me on Tivo. Great post!

  • Inna says:

    I saw pictures of myself when I was 15. I used to think I was so grown up back then, but I look so young. Now I’m starting to have white hair already. Couldn’t it have waited till I was at least 30???

  • erinb says:

    I forget how old I look now untul I see wedding pics of just 4.years ago-holy cra@ marriage and a baby aged me! Yikes!! I see myself as blair really…the mirror sees me as her maid.

  • Amy says:

    I love this analogy about your age, and love the advice about appreciating how we look now. I look back at pictures of my husband and I when we were first dating and think…oh my GOD, we were just little kids! (Not really. We were 21. Okay. That’s pretty much like little kids.)

  • Quinn Carlson says:

    As someone who was in the car with you on the Merritt, it made me feel like I was 16 again. Honestly, I think high school was the last time I drove 40 on the highway and thought it was hysterical.

  • Madmad says:

    Oh, I think about this all the time. I don’t FEEL 42; I can’t imagine that I LOOK 42… but then you SEE a 27-year-old, and they look like they’re 12. And you realize, Oh. I guess I AM 42.

    It sucks big eggs.

  • Megan says:

    I hate to say I do the same – but not with age but weight! I look back on pictures of when I thought I was fat and feel like such an idiot. I was hot!!!!!!!! So, I try to remember that.

  • Nap Warden says:

    Yes, I totally freak out at my own reflection!

    Yes I totally watched PR last night. Thank God Kathy I. wasn’t hosting. Not feeling LA though. C’mon NY is the fashion capitol of the state:P

  • francine Kasen says:

    I just saw a picture of myself when I weighed 137 and I was “HIDING” behind my kids because I thought I looked fat. Today, at 137, I’d be strutting naked down Main Street. Oh well. ENJOY your youth at ANY AGE. It’s still younger than tomorrow!!! And mostly, enjoy your KNEES. Those you will miss.

  • Cathy says:

    i saw tim gunn on the john stewart show and was so happy to hear that PR started last night! so glad i have a dvr now.
    i hear you about the aging–that is great advice via kristen.

  • Pearl says:

    I recently came across some pictures of myself from a Costa Rican vacation I took when I was 26…. uhm TEN years ago. I was shocked at what an awesome bikini bod I had and then sad that I remembered thinking I was fat. I would poke the eyes out of a kitten to have that body now. Okay, maybe not, but still I was hot. I need to remember how hot I am going to think I was at 36 when I’m 46. Thanks for the reminder!

  • Sarah says:

    Although I like reading the 50th wedding anniversary notices in the paper, the photos of them as newlyweds vs. current couple are really scary to me. They (we??) were so young and cute…what happened??!!

  • tracey says:

    My DVR went kaput upstairs so when i settled in to watch a bunch of recorded shows last night, the neighbors could hear my shrieks of fury when I saw that ALL OF THEM had been skipped. SKIPPED!! FURY!

    Yes. We are youngins. Totally. At least, in comparison to how old we’ll be in 10 years…

  • kristen says:

    it did come from me sister, and i’m all “how does kelcey KNOW that i’m feeling so old today…”

    i feel like i’m 25 and my birthday in a month is a whole lot more than that. gulp.

    and that merritt parkway is SO scary, even in broad daylight so if you need to go 40mph than you do it!

    yay top chef AND project runway!!

  • sara says:

    K – You still look the same as when I met you .. ok, so that was only like 3 years ago…. but you get my point!

  • MN Mama says:

    I like the advice of appreciating the age you are and how you look at that age. It is so much better than not not aging! I am grateful to be able to celebrate a big birthday this year and hope to have many more birthdays to come. The reality is there are no quanties. Hug your family and friends each day!

  • Ann says:

    Okay, but you can still wear your hair like fourteen year old Juliet (as in Romeo, but is she a Gossip Girl, too–side note, I almost wrote GOLDEN GIRLS) and get away with it.

    And your TINY.

    And this all makes your biting sarcasm even more refreshing. If you got a face lift, we’d expect you to be all jaded and shit.

    πŸ˜‰ xo

  • Kim says:

    I turned 39 today, and I am not happy about it at all! This is the first birthday that I can really say that too! So, yes I totally agree with you about the whole aging process!

  • anymommy says:

    Yes! This happens to me all the time. You are so very right about appreciating how we look. I already look back at college/law school photos and think, what the heck was I worried about?

  • Angie says:

    My husband and I are convinced that if we continue to watch shows like Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Friday Night Lights and 90210, we’ll never grow old.
    Although I do have to say, Lily Bass is pretty hot… I don’t think being more Lily and less Serena is a bad thing.

  • Elisa says:

    I don’t have wrinkles, fat people’s skin is more stretched out. It’s the one pluspoint of being fat πŸ˜‰

    But you, my darling, are lovely. You really are!! And have pretty hair. And a nice voice. In fact you woulnd’t be out of place in a movie about faries. Hilarious fairies, that is πŸ˜‰

  • Alexandra says:

    I will be 50 in 2 wks.

    It is true: you will NEVER look better than you do right now. Enjoy it. I looked great, and still look great BUT I sure don’t look as good as I did in my 30’s, and in my early 40’s/ Wish I would’ve known then how good I looked.

  • Aunt Marcia (Guess Whose?) says:

    You can always ‘live fast, die young, and leave a good-looking corpse’…”Knock on Any Door”…Or age like the rest of us..which is a better idea.

  • Julie says:

    Kelcey, you do still look 27! Also, I can’t help but mention my HUGE crush on Rufus. I know I am way off base when I am 41 and still shopping at Forever 21. Denial.

  • monica london says:

    I feel older than I really am, with three young children my energy is low compared to theirs, AND my whole body hurts. Its embarrassing. You rock your 27yr old look!

  • Crystal says:

    My daughter had her baby book out this weekend and everyone was looking at the pictures and ooo’ing and awww’ing at the pic of the baby (my 12 yr old) and my 8 yr old says, “Dang, Mommy…you’ve ALWAYS been old and fat”

    I swear officer, I’ve only had 2 children!

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