There is a lot of bad stuff that happens in this world. It shocks us. It makes us stop and reflect. It makes our hearts ache and our gratitude soar. And then we move on. Because we must. It’s the human spirit.
Some of the stories stay with us. Every night I pray for the mother who lost her three girls in a fire a year ago. When I get down on my knees, I feel like in some small way, I’m helping to hold her up. Does she feel the prayers of a stranger? I don’t know. I’d like to think that she does.
Despite endless tragedies in this world, life must and unbelievably march on. But there is something about this Newtown tragedy that has our nation still barely breathing. The beautiful faces that will never grow old. I wake up in the middle of the night with those 6 and 7-year-olds so clear in my mind and so heavy in my heart.
I feel very much like I did after 9-11. Like I can’t quite wrap my head around this horrible event no matter how much I try. I hear so many people say, “I still can’t stop crying.” Teachers try to teach through the tears and are suddenly trying to figure out where they would hide their students.
I keep thinking about an attack in China on the same day as the Newtown tragedy. A crazed man injured 22 children and 1 adult when he attacked them with a knife at a school in China. Not one child died. Because he had a knife. Not an assault rifle. Tell me again why we must allow assault weapons in this country.
I keep imagining my own 6-year-old in that school. My 6-year-old with her gorgeous face and bountiful dreams.
I don’t know what to do.
I want to hold my children so tight that no evil can ever be done to them.
I want to hug every Newtown family until their tears run out.
I want to march on Washington so they know that we mothers will not stand for this anymore. We just won’t.
President Clinton once said, “There is nothing wrong in America that can’t be fixed with what is right in America.”
I believe that.
You only have to look at all the wonderful people in the world to know that together, we can make this country better and safer.
Let those 20 precious children show us the way.